I don’t feel bad about adsense being disabled

Seriously, I’m not. I’m not worried that adsense got disabled.
But wait, I am feeling bad, but for something else.
I feel bad for working hard to get so much traffic on my site and just converting it into adsense clicks.
I feel bad about not launching my own products.
I feel bad about not making those visitors my loyal visitors, and just moving them to some one else through ads.
I do feel bad about hundreds of dollars lost with my adsense account being disabled, but i feel much more bad about not having established the worth of this blog other than being a “money from adsense” blog.
What do you feel bad about? share your views.